I was totally mean to someone today, and have spent the last couple of hours shaking my head and wishing I could apologize to the anonymous driver I purposely cut off in traffic on my way to yoga this morning.
Seriously, what was my problem?!!! I got this sudden spurt of “oh no, she ain’t” when a big honkin’ SUV rode up on my right and tried to jump the line and get back in front of me. I cut her off behind a parked car, and it was so obvious I was being mean, too. She and I were both feeling a little testy, I guess, because she was going to just come on over in front of me, regardless, and I wasn’t going to give in. We could both have ended up calling our insurance companies, and for what? I should just have let her come over, resented her for doing it (because I know I would have), and forgotten about it 5 minutes later.
The ironic elements to the story are: (1) I was listening to a Deepak Chopra audiobook in the car on my way there–a book about reinventing my soul, (2) I was heading to yoga, which is really just as much about the spiritual as it is about the physical, (3) and the driver followed me up the street and saw me turn into the church parking lot where the class is held. Honestly, at that point I was dreading the idea that I had just been a witch-with-a-capital-B to someone I was about to spend 75 minutes in the same room with, and at the same time I was kind of hoping it was someone who was going to pull into the lot behind me, because I soooooo wanted the chance to jump out and say, “I’m so sorry; I don’t know what came over me!”
So what did I learn from this act of stupidity? That, even at 50, I still haven’t grown up enough. And that it’s better to let someone else act juvenile and write it off than to act juvenile back and spend the rest of your day regretting it. Karma, people. Karma!
How about you? Have you done anything silly, mean, or juvenile lately and regretted it? What, if anything, did you do about it?
Filed under: Religion/Spirituality
Jan, don’t beat yourself up about it. She probably forgot 2 minutes after it happened, especially if she had warning to get over and didn’t. I will let in/ ignore depending on if they have on their turn signal, or if they waited and just muscled over. I hate that!
Sometimes drivers with big honkin’ ass vehicles need to learn that they DON’T own the road. Maybe next time she’ll merge sooner and not try to be a road hog. Maybe I’m being childish too, but I won’t give an inch for someone who passes a bunch of cars waiting in line and then tries to cut.